Monday, December 1, 2014

Fears

  1. Ketinggian
  2. Jarum yang tertancap di kulit
  3. Avertebrata
  4. Wajah tak berminat
  5. Pemandangan bawah laut
  6. Genangan air banyak
  7. Ruangan luas dan gelap
  8. Mulut anjing besar
  9. Kehilangan gigi
  10. Terbangun tengah malam
  11. Binatang-binatang di film Jumanji
  12. (the program is not responding)
  13. (your memory card is formatted)
  14. Penolakan

Monday, November 24, 2014

Let It Go..

This song so reminds me of the rebellion in Heaven. Never heard it before today. But a very close friend of mine had an unusual encounter with a demon possessedperson. Took him and others present hours of prayer to set this individual free. One of the things the demon said as he ranted was that he loved when kids sing the song "Let it Go" (from the movie Frozen). I decided to look up the lyrics to the song this morning. Now I know why! As you view the lyrics to this popular song (there are two version, so I combined them), consider these thoughts in parenthesizes. *Let me add here that I know some will only see this as coincidence, and that its only harmless fun. .
[Verse 1]
The snow blows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the Queen (Lucifer during the Millennium in his kingdom of Isolation)
The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried (Heaven???)
Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl
You always had to be (encouraging listeners that "being good" is a bad thing)
Conceal, don’t feel (go with your feelings is the right thing to do)
Don’t let them know
Well, now they know
[Chorus]
Let it go
Let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go
Let it go
Turn my back and slam the door (Exactly what Lucifer did in heaven)
And here I stand, and here I'll stay (Persistent Rebellion, Satan refused to budge, to repent)
Let it go
Let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway (Lucifer's touch of death, make everything cold)

[Verse 2]
It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small (He fell from heaven along time ago, now it seems small, irrelevant)
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all (Fully committed in his war against God)
Up here in the cold thin air
I finally can breathe
I know left a life behind but I’m too relieved to grieve (WOW, I don't think a human wrote these lyrics!!!!)

It’s time to see What I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, No rules for me 
I’m free! (WOW!!!!!!This is why he must be happy when kids sing this song)

[Bridge]
Standing frozen in the life I’ve chosen (WOW again!)
You won't find me, the past is so behind me (WOW again!)
Buried in the snow

Let it go! Let it go!
I am one with the wind and sky! (Prince of the power of the air)
Let it go! Let it go!
You’ll never see me cry! (Lucifer will never repent, he wants you to do the same, never repent!)


My power flurries through the air into the ground 
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,The past is in the past!

Let it go! Let it go! And I’ll rise like the break of dawn! (like the morning star? I will ascend above the heights of the clouds))
Let it go! Let it go! That perfect girl is gone! (Hmmm.)


[Chorus]
Let it go
Let it go
Can’t hold you back anymore
Let it go
Let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I’ll stay
Let it go
Let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

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-copy pasted from Pst. Ivor Myers's post on Facebook

Well... I've been listening to the piece of this song many many many times but never actually listened to the song fully. Thank you, Pastor for posting this. Some of you may not agree with this, but it's okay. You can read the whole comments for disagreements for this post too. I've read them all and not so surprise with all the arguments because I've been sticked with some of those points of view before.

I used to be a music addict person. Why did I use 'addict' word here? Because yes, music is addictive. Don't believe me? Try to not listening to the music for few days, and you will feel like a junkie craving for some drugs. I couldn't live a day without listen to any music before. I downloaded almost every song of the artists I knew (even the artists I don't like!), printed them out and spent hundred thousands I had for them. And you know what, I was a karaoke addict too. I loooooove singing in karaoke and 'fought' with some friends because of this. LOL! (Will write more about this in later post)

I liked Green Day, Paramore, and some other Rock Bands that (praise be to God!) I forgot the name now. I sleep with their songs playing all night long. Yes, those Rock musics. Until one day, a friend of mine gave some sermon videos about music and worship, bring me to some music seminars, gave some articles and references. Of course, at first I couldn't accept it at all. He's talking about my most, biggest addiction and refered them as sin! How dare!

And after a long long long time of denial, I finally gave up with those things. I deleted ALL my music treasure on my devices. It's been a hard decision until I finally press the shift + delete button without click cancelling proccess. Yes, I admit it, music is addictive.

And now, so sad to see many people still listen to those kinds of song which is contrary to scripture. Let's not talk about the subliminal message just like the song above. Even the song that clearly contrary to the scripture or even the value in our society are still heard in people's playlist today. Here are the two examples from Bruno MArs songs.

I'd catch a grenade for you

Throw my hand on a blade for you
I'd jump in front of a train for you
You know I'd do anything for you
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

-Grenade-
What's most girls reaction to a man who sing this song to her? "AWWW.. SOOOO SWEEEEET?"
Which actually the lyrics are terrible. What do you expect from a man who had this kind of stupid thought?

Cause it's a beautiful night,

We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.


If we wake up and you wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun, girl.

-Marry You-

How marriage become this kind of -only-for-fun thing to do.

And I've heard a 3 years old kid singing "I wanna make up right now na na" from Akon. That lyrics! And her mom cheering to see her daughter singing it. Terrible!

Here some music sermons that you should see.


and their series on YouTube. May this help you to find which music you should listen to. And also this one, explanation about the truth behind Disney:


 Because it is written:
Romans 10:17  "So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God."
Romans 12:1  "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service."

and..
Philippians 4:8  Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Cleansed, Clothed, Comissioned

This time I would like to share one of my favorite sermon from a young man I met in Solo. Yes, he's Jasper Ivan Itturiaga. This is one of my unforgetable sermon. I've read the chapter before but when I watched this sermon, I feel like I read nothing before. The messages are very deep for me because it touch my personal sin that I've never recognize before. So here it is, titled "Cleanse, Clothed, Comission" based on Mark Chapter 5. Please pray before you read this. :)

Jasper opened this sermon with his experience in Singapore. He went to a Louis Vuitton shop, curiously checking out the price of the shoe. It was more than 2000 in Singapore Dollar. What an expensive one for only a shoe! But with that expensive price, the shop is still open. Why? Because they're still buying it. And he came up with a conclusion,
"Therefore, the value of something is identified in how much the person is willing to give up for that item."
The value of your hair is identified in how much shampoo you put in it.
The value of your health is identified in how much time in finding fresh fruits, or healthy food for you to take into your body.
The value of the Sabbath is always identified in how much the person is willing to sacrifice for the Sabbath. 

Let's continue to Mark Chapter 5

Mar 5:1 And they came over unto the other side of the sea, into the country of the Gadarenes.

Mar 5:2 And when he was come out of the ship, immediately there met him out of the tombs a man with an unclean spirit,


On the previous Chapter there’s a story about intense storm when Jesus and His disciples was in the middle of the lake. After He calmed the storm, they went to the little island called the Gadarenes. And when he went out of the ship, the was a man with an unclean spirit. 


Mar 5:3 Who had his dwelling among the tombs; and no man could bind him, no, not with chains:


The Bible tells us that this man was so strong. They wanted to bind him but they could not because he was just too strong.

Mar 5:4 Because that he had been often bound with fetters and chains, and the chains had been plucked asunder by him, and the fetters broken in pieces: neither could any man tame him.


The question is, do you think that’s a problem?
Sure it was a problem.

Mar 5:5 And always, night and day, he was in the mountains, and in the tombs, crying, and cutting himself with stones. 

Mar 5:6 But when he saw Jesus afar off, he ran and worshipped him,


In the book Desire of Ages, Mrs White wrote this:

In the early morning the Saviour and His companions came to shore, and the light of the rising sun touched sea and land as with the benediction of peace. But no sooner had they stepped upon the beach than their eyes were greeted by a sight more terrible than the fury of the tempest.


Have you ever seen the person that scarier that the typhoon? This is what happening. 

From some hiding place among the tombs, two madmen rushed upon them as if to tear them in pieces. Hanging about these men were parts of chains which they had broken in escaping from confinement. Their flesh was torn and bleeding where they had cut themselves with sharp stones. Their eyes glared out from their long and matted hair, the very likeness of humanity seemed to have been blotted out by the demons that possessed them, and they looked more like wild beasts than like men.


God shows to Mrs White how terrible was the situation of the man. What if you’re walking in the middle of the night, alone in the dark then you suddenly stumble upon this person? What would you do? I’ll probably run. And the very same thing the disciples did.

The disciples and their companions fled in terror; but presently they noticed that Jesus was not with them, and they turned to look for Him.

They fled, and they asked, “Hey, where is Jesus?”, and they looked back, they saw Jesus there. He was standing where they have left Him. Sometimes we may laugh at the desciples but sometimes when fear comes to us, we do the very same thing. 
"We sometimes forget that Jesus Christ is with us. We forget that Jesus promised that He will be with us."
I remember Ellen White saying, 
“We have nothing to fear for the future, except as we shall forget the way the Lord has led us, and His teaching in our past history.--LS 196 (1902). {LDE 72.1}
Look at verse 7

Mar 5:7 And cried with a loud voice, and said, What have I to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of the most high God? I adjure thee by God, that thou torment me not. 


So this man beg Jesus and said “Jesus, don’t hurt me!” and this is what happened, verse 9

Mar 5:9 And he asked him, What is thy name? And he answered, saying, My name is Legion: for we are many.

Mar 5:10 And he besought him much that he would not send them away out of the country. 

Mar 5:11 Now there was there nigh unto the mountains a great herd of swine feeding. 

Mar 5:12 And all the devils besought him, saying, Send us into the swine, that we may enter into them.
Mar 5:13 And forthwith Jesus gave them leave. 


Do you get that? Jesus did not command them to go to the pigs. He permitted them. There’s a huge difference between commanding and permitting. We don’t know why Hitler killed about 6 millions Jews, we don’t know that. But I’m pretty sure that God did’t command that to happen. 
"You may have trials in your life but God did not command that to happen but He permitted them for some reasons."
Mar 5:12 And all the devils besought him, saying, Send us into the swine, that we may enter into them. 

Mar 5:13 And forthwith Jesus gave them leave. And the unclean spirits went out, and entered into the swine: and the herd ran violently down a steep place into the sea, (they were about two thousand;) and were choked in the sea. 

Mar 5:14 And they that fed the swine fled, and told it in the city, and in the country. And they went out to see what it was that was done


So the swine keeper go to the boss said, “Boss, all our pigs are all gone. Our business all are gone. They all are dead. This man, Jesus, He commanded the demon to go to our pigs.” And what happened was this..

Mar 5:15 And they come to Jesus, and see him that was possessed with the devil, and had the legion, sitting, and clothed, and in his right mind: and they were afraid.


The man was clothed. First, the man was cleansed, now he was clothed. You’ll see the little part as we move forward. When they saw the man, the man was changed. I want you to notice the past life of the man before he met Jesus. Let’ review. Look at verse 4.

Mar 5:4 Because that he had been often bound with fetters and chains, and the chains had been plucked asunder by him, and the fetters broken in pieces: neither could any man tame him.

Mar 5:5 And always, night and day, he was in the mountains, and in the tombs, crying, and cutting himself with stones.


Look at the state the man before he met Jesus. Before he met Jesus, he was doing things that he’s not supposed to do in his body. He’s sleeping in the place he’s not supposed to sleep. Tomb is not a fitted place for a normal person to sleep, right? Probably he’s eating things he’s not supposed to eat. Probably he’s posting something on the facebook that he’s not supposed to post. Probably he’s buying things that he’s not supposed to buy. Or watching things on Youtube that he’s not supposed to watch. But when he saw Jesus Christ, all around him, the people saw that the man was changed. And just as Paul said,
2Co 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
This is the state supposed tobe of every Christians. When you received Jesus, when you are revived, there should be a reformation. Because reformation testifies to the revival.
"Revival without reformation is fanaticism. Revival without reformation is an emotional tingle. If we are revived but we are not reformed to the glory of God, then it’s just an emotional tingle."
“O that was a wonderful sermon! I like the sermon!” then you go home, the same, it’s nothing. 

Mar 5:15 And they come to Jesus, and see him that was possessed with the devil, and had the legion, sitting, and clothed, and in his right mind: and they were afraid. 

Probably this guy was naked before, right? And now he was clothed. And I think that this is one of our problemsin the churches today. Especially on the post-modern age, we are not probably clothed. Especially some ladies. As a young pastor, this is my burden, that the church is starting to lower its standards in terms of dress. This man after he met Jesus, he was clothed. And if you met Jesus, even your dress must be right. 

Ladies, Bible said that your body is the temple of God, right? Do you know what they do in the temple before? The covered it. Why? Because when an ordinary person see some materials in the holy place and the most holy place, what happened to him? They die. Why? Because it’s holy.
"You know, some men in our church died spiritually every day because some ladies are showing off their most holy place. It should be covered."
I remember one time there was a lady named Mary Quant, the founder of mini skirts. People are asking her, “Why do you invent the mini skirts?”

She said that mini skirts are made for sex to be available in the afternoon. You can research that. And we are wearing this in our church. My friends, we must be careful. We are lowering the standards. We must raise it up, my friends. Men are struggling, even me. Same struggle when I go to the mall, same struggle when I go to the church to keep my mind pure. 

Maybe the ladies may say, “O that’s your fault.”
No, we are created to be sexual beings. We trapped in to this. And we must keep our mind pure. 

Even the man did this. I see many man wearing low pants showing their shorts. They feel like cool but actually the looked like a fool. It’s terrible. You know, the used that in prison to show that they’re homosexual and they are available.

We are lowering the standards. 

Ladies, remember this.
"You don’t need to sacrifice the modesty in the name of beauty. Because modesty in of itself is beauty."
Don’t listen to what satan said. When God said to aaron, “Aaron, you must make a certain dress for the priest. When you make the dress you should make it for glory and for beauty.”

It’s not when you dress modestly then you’re weird. God said, it’s beautiful. This man, when he met Jesus, he was changed. When you met Jesus, my friend, the things that you eat, the things that you watch, the things that you listen to, must be submitted to His will.

Mar 5:16 And they that saw it told them how it befell to him that was possessed with the devil, and also concerning the swine. 
Mar 5:17 And they began to pray him to depart out of their coasts. 
Mar 5:18 And when he was come into the ship, he that had been possessed with the devil prayed him that he might be with him.

And this man begged Jesus, “Jesus, I wanna be with You. I wanna be a missionary! I wanna be like Doug Batchelor, I wanna be like Mark Finley, I wanna be a famous evangelist! I wanna evangelize the whole world in what happened to me! Look at what happened verse 19

Mar 5:19 Howbeit Jesus suffered him not, but saith unto him, Go home to thy friends, and tell them how great things the Lord hath done for thee, and hath had compassion on thee. 

And this man he was cleansed, clothed, and now he was commissioned to do something. This is supposed to be experienced by every Christians. When you received Jesus, you are reformed from your old ways, you are made new. And now, you are commissioned to do something. 

Ellen White said,
"My brother, my sister, you can not be a Christian and cherish at the same time a spirit of covetousness. You can not be a Christian and yet not be putting forth effort to win souls to Jesus." (RH April 14, 1910 The Regions Beyond)
A Christian cannot just be in silent if Christ is in their hearts. 

Ellen White also said:
"No more could a soul who possesses Christ be hindered from confessing Him, than could the waters of Niagara be stopped from flowing over the falls." --Testimonies, vol. 2, p. 233. {ChS 229.6} 
And as the result, look at the verse 20

Mar 5:20 And he departed, and began to publish in Decapolis how great things Jesus had done for him: and all men did marvel. 

And this man was the first missionary that Jesus sent.

My friends, God can change you, but the change is not just stop there. You are called to do something. Go home, to your friends and tell them. Let’s back to verse 17

Mar 5:17 And they began to pray him to depart out of their coasts.

When they saw Jesus, and all the pigs gone, they started to beg Jesus. Jesus, can You please leave? You’re bad luck. Our pigs are all gone. You know what are they basically saying? 
“Lord, solve our problems. But please, save our pigs.”
You know there are two problems in this community. The first problem is they have the demon possessed man. That’s why I asked you, is that a problem? Yes, it is a problem.

Number two, their swines. They’re not supposed to do that, right? They’re Jewish! They probably selling it to the Gentiles or maybe to the Greeks, I’m not sure but the’re not supposed to do that.

Jesus solved solved their two problems. First, He solved demon possessed man and the second one is no more pigs. Everyone must be healthy, amen? And there’s no more black markets there. Two problems solved. But they only recognize one problem. Because they did not recognize the problem about their pigs. That’s why the said, “Lord, you can solve our problems, but please save our pigs.”

We may laugh at the Gadarenes but we sometimes do the same. 
Lord, please solve my health problems, but please don’t tell me to become a vegetarian. Lord, please solve my financial problems, but please don’t try to tell me to pay tithes. Lord, please solve my family problems, but please don’t tell me to turn off the TV. Lord, my son now is watching pornography but please don’t try to tell me to turn off the internet! 
Friends, sometimes we pray to God to solve what we want God to change in our lives, but in time when God want to touch something that we cherish the most, we turn back and say, no, it’s too much. Don’t touch that. 

“Lord, you can solve our problems, but please save our pigs.”

Do we have pigs in our lives? Is there a stinky old bad pig in your backyard that God is telling you, that’s bad for you. And you say, You can touch anything, Lord, but please don’t touch that. 

Is there some sins that we cherish the most, but we act like the Gadarenes, I’d better have the pigs than You, Jesus. Is there?

Monday, September 29, 2014

I'm in Love with GoPro Hero 3+

Last week I had a chance to go around the Capital City, Jekardah! And what's happier? I got a chance to play with this gorgeous cam of a friend of mine. Thanks bang Cana for letting me to have a date with your GoPro Hero 3+! Though I'm not a good photographer, this GoPro help my picture much from looking so who-is-so-drunk-taking-this picture? Yes, yes whatever, I enjoy clicking my (temporary) GoPro and helped by my (temporary) IPad. Thanks kak Hay! Mwah.. Mwah..

Please allow my face to be the first picture and don't stare at this too long. Just continue to the next pict. Yes.

I captured without looking at the IPad anyway

Hello, Mister. Are you alone? Why'd be alone if we can be together? #tsaaaaah

Please ignore those big holes on my nose

I came here just because no one's here so I can capture shameless Wahahaha..
Pardon my bad finger :(

Captureception. Pictures in Pictures in Pictures in.. STAHP!

This is it!
And after you read this post, please join me in #koinUntukAdekBeliGoPro. lol

Anyway, pictures above taken at Kota Tua, exclude the last two are taken at Pacific Place, Jakarta. Oh yes I'm #anakgauljekarda for a while. Please stop me from playing thishashtag on blogspot. #pleasehelp

Going to the Next Level of Life

Hola!
Among all the long to do list that has to get done, I chose to write this. Great decision Dek. Thank you, thank you.. :') *facepalm

But yes, how I miss writing (curhat-ing, red)! After all of those hectic, tearing, and desperating moments, I can finally say, IT IS FINISHED! Well, at least one step has been passed. Yes, I finally finished my college thingy! All the subjects, registration things, tuitions, tasks, exams, proposal seminar, and finally (oh yes I repeated word 'finally' often).. DEFENSES! All are done! Surprise? It surprised me more!


My only participants on defense :))


It surprised me much! You won't believe if I say that this was miracle, yes MIRACLE! Few weeks ago, just few days before my defense schedule published, I was thinking about how would I pay my next semester tuition? How would I explain to my mom and dad about this potponement (again)? Aaand how would I live one more semester to respond all the "are you graduated already?" questions? And until this morning, for few mornings, every time I got up , I still can believe that I don't have to worry about it all, like it bothered me before. I pinched my hands, literally, to make sure if this was not a dream. Yes, this is real.

Just few weeks ago, when I was trying to register my name for defense schedule, I had to face the reality that 8 of my subject's grades wasn't exist. Of course without all my grades completed I can't register myself to get the defense schedule. Then I asked the secretariat for the way out, so she told me to call all the lecturers and ask the if the still have my grades on their database. Praise God I still have that chance! But the problem iiiis, I only have 2 days for registering and one of them is Sabbath, which sure I can't do this on that day. So actually I only have that Friday to get all of those things done, which is almost impossible. Then I contact all the lecturer numbers that I had, and do everything I can before it's Sabbath day. "God, give me strength and show me Your miracle as You did before," I prayed. 

"You can do it again tomorrow," the secreatariat suggested me. 
"No, I can't. Tomorrow I should be at church," I said.
"You can skip that one, just for a day. Your future depends on this, right? Just come again tomorrow."
"I can't." I replied and smile. 

It's 5.30pm. The office was empty. 3 lecturers replied my texts and calls. "God, it's Sabbath day and I don't want to dissapoint You. Thy will be done, please strengthen me." again, I prayed.

Next Monday, I decided to go to campus. Hoping for a little chance for a huge miracle. 5 lecturers replied me so far. I came to see the Chairman of my department. And you know what, the defense schedule has been published and it started on that Monday. Yes, I am late. But I don't care, I'll do everything I could do. Fyi, I always avoid to meet him (the chairman) because of many things. Somehow I feel like he hates me, but that day, I just don't care. I come to see him, asking for the extra time to get all my grades. With his unhappy face, after grumbling, he told me to get all of those subject's grades, then come again and see if they can give me a chance to go in defense. Interdeminancy. But I think there's a possibility! So I continue to follow up the lecturers, and one of them is retired. But thank God I found his number, I call him, he told me to come to his house because tomorrow he'll be in Jakarta. Thank God I found his home, and fyi, his subject was taken 5 years ago so I'm not sure he still had my grade. And it's true. So we talked, and talked about the lecture he teached before and once again, thank God it's Religion Subject so I can answer all his questions. He gave me B which I remember he used to give me A before. But it's okay. I don't care bout my grades anyway. All I concern is just to get into the defense and get out of my campus.

Once again, I was being tested with Sabbath. One more lecturer can't give me my grade, unless I finished the task ke asked, which is a report for my Job Training. He asked me to finished it in two days, which that day was Friday and the next day is, yes Sabbath. So it means that I should finish it on that day, and it was 1pm. Quite impossible as I finished one in few months before. "God, I know this is quite impossible, but again, Thy will be done, and please give me strength," I prayed again. Then I go to McDonalds, where I can use the electricity and do that quite impossible thing. I typed, I copied, I pasted, I browsed and, voila! It all done at 4.30pm. But I have to print it out and one more problem is coming. I only have idr 20.000 in my pocket. This won't be enough if I cover it with mika. So I ask my lecturer if I should cover it with mika or not. HE didn't reply me. While I was printing, I pray. And when it comes to pay, it has not covered yet, it was idr 15.000. Still 5000 left, right how I needed to get home. Then my lecturer answered my text that I don't need to cover it with mika. HALLELUJAH!

Next Monday, I came again. It was the second week of defenses. I'm nervous. It's so much late, can I register for the defense? And my lecture not yet giving me the grade and can only be met on 12pm. And when I met him again, he told me that I had to revise some parts of my report. Oh kay. 

The next day, I come again, and still he didn't give my grade. My calls and texts was unanswered. "God, please strengthen me whatever will be," again I prayed. I waited until the office empty for days. On Wednesday, that morning I came again, asking if the lecturer had given my grade to the secretariat. The answer is still no. Hopelessly I left campus and went to my friend's house and try to calm myself down. Everything will be alright. Everything will be alright, I said to myself. Again, at 12pm I went back to campus and ask the same question to the secretariat. Surprisingly, the answer is YES! Then he checked my form for the completed grades, I copied this, I copied that, and wait for the defense commitee. I met him, and gave all the requirements. Another request, I ask him, "Sir, may I ask to not getting my defense on Saturday? I can't do this on Sabbath." And he replied, "You, having problem on Saturday again? I don't know, let's see if we can make it. Just try to contact miss T." Even if it's an uncertain answer, I'm glad that he responded me like that, not as he responded me before, "Don't be radical, just come or fail."

I went home, it was 11am. At 4pm a friend of mine BBMed me told me that the newest schedule has been published and my name was there! I get the schedule on FRIDAY! The next 2 days! FRIDAY! Not SATURDAY! How can I thank God more? How can I? How? How? I jumped, yes I jumped. And here I am now, Adhe Fitriana Simbolon, S.I.Kom. Oh how I wish I can tell you guys every detail of it, to let you see how God loves me soooooo much by His every miracle.

Convo with Secreatariat D-1 Graduation

My G-day - Happy Graduation, Me!

The graduatuon ceremony was on Sabbath day, 2 days ago. Sure I wasnot there! This miracles are too much for me to go there. I graduated myself a day before everyone. Isn't it cool?

Monday, July 28, 2014

Wonderful 2014

Yeaay! Udah Juli aja nih. Ngga kerasa 2014 sudah berjalan setengah tahun. Dan 6 bulan ini bulan yang tak terduga! Mari flashback..

Januari dan Februari, aku mulai usaha iseng-iseng bikin stiker. Mayan lah buat nambah-nambah ongkos. Mulai Februari kemarin juga aku dikasih Tuhan berkat HP baru. Hihiihii.. Maret, sempet maen ke penjara untuk pertama kalinya. April? Finally maju juga buat sidang seminar Usulan Penelitian yang sempat tertunda sebelumnya. Dan aku juga dapet kerjaan transkrip yang bikin akhirnya aku bisa bayar kuliah tanpa minta orang tua selama 1 semester. Belum pernah kebayang sebelumnya.

Mei, bulan yang penuh dengan nikahan. Beberapa hari di ibu kota dalam rangka nikahan sepupu, acara adat di Bandung, dan 2 hari kemudian meluncur ke Solo buat ikutan Dynamic Training IAFCOE. Yang istimewa, biasanya aku ke acara beginian ga ngeluarin duit sepeserpun alias dibayarin gereja. Tapi kali ini, biaya hasil kerja sendiri. Praise God!

Dynamic Training, pengalaman seru bersama teman-teman lainnya ikutan pelatihan IAFCOE, ngetuk pintu rumah orang buat sharing dan mendoakan. Dan tanpa diduga juga, menghabiskan malam sebelum 2 Juni terdampar di acara tunangan orang yang makanannya mostly ramah buat vegetarian! Naik odong-odong, wisata kuliner, dan nganter-nganter orang. >.<

Besoknya lanjut melancong ke Jogja. Keliling-keliling dan tanpa diduga tiba-tiba diserbu serombongan orang yang ternyata lagi berkerumun gara-gara pak Jokowi datang. Tiba-tiba udah kejebak aja di bawah kerumunan. Seru abis. Hahaha. Norak.

Juni akhir menuju Juli, dapet kerjaan survey di Tangerang 4 hari. Keliling kota yang sama sekali asing, masuk mall-mall, naik-turun taksi, dan sebelumnya sempet nyinggah ke Bogor dan ngelayat ke Cibubur. Beberapa hari kemudian melanjutkan pengembaraan ke Lumajang. Transit di Surabaya, lanjut ke Lumajang. DEngan niat mendaki Semeru tapi dibayang-bayangi skripsi, akhirnya urung dan mentok di Bromo dan Ranu Regulo. One day, I will! Tapi tetep seruuu keliling Lumajang, kejedot-jedot kereta dan hardtop. Ngelewatin jalan yang rusak dan berbatunya parah. Pulang sendirian selama 24 jam perjalanan. UNTUK PERTAMA KALINYA JUGA!

Sampe Bandung, 2 hari kemudian ikut siding Komprehensif dan lulusss! Tinggal selangkah lagi.. Sejauh ini Tuhan masih setia ngasih apa yang aku butuhkan pada waktu yang tepat. So why worry for the future?

Dan sekarang, aku mau kembali melanjutkan petualangan baru.. Berangkat 2 hari lagii.. Akan ada cerita apa kali inii? Can’t waitttt.. Stay tune.. :)

Monday, May 12, 2014

Tahun ini menyenangkan!

Baru 5 bulan berjalan, tapi serunya udah mulai kerasa. Seru macam apa?

Tahun ini, setelah penundaan demi penundaan, akhirnya aku mulai lagi ngerjain skripsiku. Hampir tiap hari harus ke kampus, ngurusin sisa-sisa kesalahan di masa lalu ya minta ampun banyaknya. Ditambah aku mencoba buat mencari duit sendiri. Orang kayak aku, bisa apa sih?

Jadi kemaren-kemaren aku sempet berpikir untuk kerja part time. Aku mulai nyari-nyari di internet, tanya-tanya temen, dan sempat apply CV ke 2 tempat. Puji Tuhan nggak dipanggil. Aku sempet juga ngirim CV ke beberapa instansi dan hampir semuanya membalas untuk interview, dan kirim portofolio. Kalau liat CV aku sih, orang pasti mikirnya aku seorang desainer. Iya sih aku memang mengarah ke kerjaan yang berbau desain instead of kehumasan. Tapi begitu beberapa dari mereka minta portofolio dan interview, aku langsung minder, padahal belum nyoba. Hahaha cupu memang.

Akhirnya setelah pencarian yang panjang itu, aku iseng-iseng desain dan akhirnya kepikiran buat jual stiker. Dimulai dari iseng, Puji Tuhan ternyata banyak yang minat. Gak nyangka sih. Dan dari situ malah jadi banyak orderan semacam bikinin banner, poster, kartu dan sebagainya yang ebrbau desain. Seneng banget dong akrena sejujurnya aku lebih bersemangat ngerjain beginian dari pada ehem, tugas kuliah.

Terus, selain sibuk sama orderan desain, aku juga sempet dapet kerjaan semacam jadi surveyor. Pertama kali dan seru juga. Dan duitnya lumayan banget. Walaupun agak capek dan bermodalkan muka tebel. Hehehe.

DAn saat ini, aku sedang disibukkan sama kerjaan transrip wawancara yang bujubuneng panjang dan cukup meguras energi. Tapi seru! Aku niat banget ngerjainnya. serunya lagi, dari isi wawancara itu aku dapet pengetahuan baru yang bahkan jauh banget dari bidang aku.

Di samping kerjaan yang menghasilkan duit, sebenernya kerjaan yang nggak menghasilkan duitnya lebih banyak. Tapi lebih menyenangkan lagi. Dan yang paling penting, ini pekerjaan Tuhan. Aku lagi dalam project sama beberapa teman, ya sebut saja whatever ministry. Dari jadwal KPA yang 3 kali seminggu (bahkan bisa lebih), terus proyek translate Buku Roh Nubuat yang juga bejibun, ngurusin pembicara Bible study, Charity tiap Minggu pagi di CFD Dago, masih ngurusin PA Naripan juga, dikit-dikit di IMAB juga, di PAG juga, dan ikut acara ini-itu. SAmpe-sampe suka dapet celetukan "Dek, lo kok ada di mana-mana, ya?" Anggep aja komentar positif. Selama dia nggak nemuin aku lagi nongkring di pinggir jalan malakin anak orang.

Semuanya berjalan bersamaan. Kadang pusing, kadang pegel (nongkrong depan laptop mulu), kadang agak tertekan oleh deadline, tapi totally menyenangkan! Di sini aku mulai belajar buat manage waktu dengan baik, tetep bisa belajar Alkitab apapun yang terjadi dan tetep usahakan punya waktu buat sahabat-sahabat. Kalau dibutuhkan dan nggak sia-sia. :D


Aaah betapa 2014 berjalan dengan indah sejauh ini. Di tengah hecticnya kerjaan, aku masih sempet nih ngetik beginian. Aku pengen nunjukkin betapa aku menyukuri ke-hectic-an ini dan betapa semua bisa menjadi berkat kalau memang aku bawa itu bukan jadi suatu beban. So, why worry? Semangat kerjaaaaaaaa semuanya! :) :) :)

Saturday, May 10, 2014

God Works in Misterious Ways

Harusnya aku udah terbiasa dengan kejutan-kejutan ajaib-Nya yang selalu ada di setiap saat di hidupku. Dan kali ini, Dia masih Tuhan baik yang sama buatku.

Jadi kemaren aku bergumul sama bayaran kuliah. Mulai semester kemaren aku mau mencoba buat bayar kuliah sendiri. Sebenarnya ini adalah tindakan sok-sokan, soalnya aku, yang belum punya kerjaan tetap ini, mau bayar kuliah sendiri yang jutaan itu? Ditambah lagi, dalam waktu dekat aku pengen ikut pelatihan IAFCOE yang selain uang pendaftarannya juga lumayan, plus ongkos dan segala macemnya itu. Aku masih keukeuh, aku harus ikut acara ini. Aku malah berpikir, gakpapa aku kuliah masih belum jelas, yang pasti aku pengen ikut acara ini, yang aku harap bisa bikin aku semakin mengerti tentang jalan Tuhan.

Dan secercah harapan datang. Aku tiba-tiba dihubungi dan dapet 2 kerjaan dari Tuhan. Oh iya bagus, aku jadi nih ke IAFCOE (tanpa mikirin soal bayaran kuliah gimana). Sampai hari H bayar kuliah datang. DEG!

Sampai akhirnya kemaren mendekati tenggak bayar kuliah. Duit masih nggak ada. Sekali gak masukin, udah deh, cuti akademik. Do I Worry? Dikit. 

Dan ternyata ada ujian lain dari Tuhan. Di tengah kegalauan aku tentang uang kuliah ini, sempet terpikir beberapa teman yang dulu pernah berpesan, kalau ada masalah apa-apa, bilang aku ya Dek, jangan segan-segan. Aku tau mereka bisa aku andalkan dalam hal ini juga. Tapi kemudian ada dari teman-teman yang mau bikin pelayanan di suatu tempat, mereka masih kekurangan dana. Mereka minta tolong buat bantuan cari dana dengan menghubungi para alumni, yang adalah beberapa di antaranya orang-orang tadi, yang mau aku mintai bantuannya buat kuliahku.

Pilihannya begini, kalau aku mintai mereka bantuan buat pelayanan ini, aku udah pasti gak akan minta bantuan lagi soal masalahku. Atau, aku minta mereka bantu masalahku, tapi aku gak minta bantuan dana pelayanan ke mereka. Entah kenapa, aku dengan mantapnya minta mereka bantu pelayanan ini. Sedangkan, kurang dari 2 jam lagi adalah tenggak aku bayar kuliah. God will provide, kataku dalam hati.

Kemudian abangku nelepon. Dia nanya kuliah trus apa yang dia bisa bantu. Dengan sok jual mahal dan sok mandirinya aku bilang, nggak usah Bang. Selesai bicara dikit, telepon ditutup. Nyesel. HAHAHA. Agak ngerasa bodoh dikit, gimana kalau ternyata itu jalan Tuhan. Lalu jalan Tuhan macam apa lagi yang aku harapkan dengan melewatkan yang satu tadi? Selamat setress dek.

Sampai akhirnya beberapa jam mendekati jam autodebet, aku udah pusiang tujuah kaliliang. Duit yang terkumpul belum cukup juga. Waktu berjalan, tinggal 1 jam lagi, secercah harapan datang. Ada dua teman yang bisa bantu aku. Yang satu tanpa basa-basi, dan satunya lagi dengan tambahan kata 'cicil semampunya aja, Dek.' :') Tapi nggak bisa gitu, aku masih punya kewajiban buat bayar itu. Tapi, tapi, gimana? Proyek yang ini belum jelas bayarannya kapan.

Dan tibalah hari ini, doaku dijawab. DIJAWAB LAGI! Yes He provided! Sejumlah uang sudah di tangan. Belum nutupin semuanya, tapi SANGAT SANGAT MEMBANTU. Pengen lompat rasanya. Terima kasih, Tuhan. MeragukanMu memang bukan hakku. Terima kasih! 

And still, He works in misterious ways. And I'm excited to His next miracle.

I love You, God. Teach me to love You more. :)

Monday, April 28, 2014

Rape is Never the Victim's Fault?

Beberapa hari ini satu berita yang menghiasi TV dan media lainnya. Menghiasi, tapi gak bikin indah. Iya, beritanya menyakitkan, menyedihkan. Pemerkosaan terhadap anak-anak. Yes, gak cuma satu, banyak kasus akhirnya menguak sejak (yang pertama aku tau) pelecehan seksual terhadap anak TK di JIS. Sedih. Sedih banget. Tapi gak mengagetkan toh memang dunia akan semakin jahat. Ayah bunuh anak, anak bunuh ibu, mutilasi, pembunuhan, could it be worse? Please no. But it will. :(

Kejahatan dunia sekarang juga bukan hal yang baru, toh di Alkitab udah dibilang "Tidak ada yang baru di bawah kolong langit." Kriminalitas sekarang juga gak lebih jahat dibanding jaman Abraham dulu, sampe-sampe tuhan kasih air bah. Bedanya, sekarang ga akan ada air bah. Aku pernah bertanya-tanya, kek gimana ya sucinya hidup si Henokh ini sampe-sampe diangkat ke surga tanpa mengalami kematian. Kupikir jamannya dia gak ada yang jahat kalik ya. Setelah diulik, Alkitab dan Roh Nubuat bilang NOPE. Sama jahatnya. Bedanya, dia memilih untuk tetap bergaul dengan Tuhan. WOW. Can I?

Kemarin ada selebtweet yang posting gambar ini yang tentunya langsung ramai diRT setimeline. RAPE IS NEVER THE VICTIM'S FAULT. Ya, emang sih siapa yang mau dan berencana buat diperkosa? None. Tidak ada wanita atau pria waras yang menginginkannya. Tapi, gambar ini bisa bermakna lain. Bisa bikin wanita yang kurang bijak menangkap sebagai "I'll dress as I want, as the pictures describe, but I dont want to be raped."

Sure we all know that men are visual. Ini gak membenarkan tindakan perkosaan. DENGAN ALASAN APAPUN. Tapi please girls, cara kita berpakaian sangat sangatlah menentukan. Untuk apa kita berdandan? Tanpa munafik, aku bisa bilang untuk terlihat menarik. Kalau cuma terlihat layak, come on, kita gak akan menghabiskan waktu berpuluh-puluh menit, beratus-ratus ribu, cuma demi terlihat pantas tok. Kita ingin terlihat menarik, oleh sesama jenis, atau lawan jenis. Dan kemudian menggunakan pakaian kurang bahan? Rela kena masuk angin, duduk gak nyaman, BUAT APA? Dan kalau masih bersikeras dengan tipe pakaian ini, terima resikonya. Sorry to say. Pake rok mini tapi kalo ada yang lirik-lirik tersinggung. Girls!

Tapi jangan juga sampe bilang aku picik, bilang kasus perkosaan cuma salah si korban dan pakaiannya. Baca baik-baik. Appearance kita itu bisa 'memancing'. Lalu bagaimana dengan kasus yang diperkosa padahal pakaiannya baik-baik saja? Dan di tempat yang tidak diduga. Nah kalau itu di luar kuasa kita. Setan itu bisa di mana aja. Yang perlu kita lakukan adalah berhati-hati dan mengusahakan apa yang bisa kita usahakan. Salah satunya, berpakaian yang layak. Mau tau bagaimana yang layak? Seharusnya sih kita semua tau. For Adventist, we are instructed very very clearly on the Bible and Spirit and Prophecy. Itu bukan cuma alasan sopan gak sopan, Tuhan ga sedangkal itu. Itu buat kesehatan, dan keselamatan. Ya, pakaian ada hubungannya sama keselamatan. Eternal Life.

Dan satu lagi, bagaimana kita berpakaian mencerminkan siapa Tuhan kita. Apakah tuhan kita fashion? Pacar kita? Gebetan kita? Uang kita? Pujian untuk kita? Sampe-sampe banyak kasus terlambat kebaktian gara-gara kelamaan dandan. I've been there. And I don't want to stay there. And last quote..

"Perhiasanmu janganlah secara lahiriah, yaitu dengan mengepang-ngepang rambut, memakai perhiasan emas atau dengan mengenakan pakaian yang indah-indah, tetapi perhiasanmu ialah manusia batiniah yang tersembunyi dengan perhiasan yang tidak binasa yang berasal dari roh yang lemah lembut dan tenteram, yang sangat berharga di mata Tuhan." 
"Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price." 1 Pet 3:3,4

(diketik 22 April 2014) 



Monday, April 7, 2014

Am I an ADHD Kids?

6 April 2014, pagi ini aku baca renungan dari Christ Triumphant yang judulnya Results Of Hardening The Heart Against God. Langsung keinget sama video kesaksiannya Andre kemaren, yang juga aku tonton tadi malam. Tentang anak yang ADHD (Attention Deficit Hiyperactivity Disorder). Anak dengan ADHD punya masalah dengan aktifitas motoriknya yang berlebihan sehingga dia gak bisa konsentrasi dan cenderung melakukan aktifitas yang berlebihan dan susah disuruh tenang atau diam. Di video itu si anak waktu jalan sama orang tuanya selalu pengen jalan duluan, dan waktu disuruh pegang tangan mamanya dia ga mau sampai mamanya suruh berkali-kali, sempet diikutin tapi sambil ngedumel dan gak lama dia jalan duluan lagi. Gelantungan, pegang ini-itu yang ada di jalanan, bahkan sempat juga waktu mereka parkir mobil di lantai atas gitu (kayak parkiran di ciwalk), dia lari dan manjat-manjat ke pinggiran dan berusaha ngeliat ke bawah. Papanya ngelarang, tapi dia ga mau denger, padahal kan bahaya banget tuh. Sampe akhirnya papanya lari gendong paksa dia. Dia marah. Ada juga cerita anak lain lagi yang mungkin kepanjangan aku cerita.

Gambaran ini kita banget. Aku banget, deng. Anak dengan ADHD rohani yang suka sotoy pengen mendahului rencana Tuhan yang pastinya yang terbaik itu. Sering Tuhan tegur "Jangan ke situ Dek, nanti jatuh!" Tapi aku dengan bandelnya 'manjat' karena aku pengen tau ada apa di bawah sana. Gak bertanya kenapa aku gak boleh ke sana.

Ayo ikuti terapi Tuhan lewat semua pengalaman hidup kita supaya kita gak terus-terusan ADHD rohani dan akhirnya karena keras tengkuknya Tuhan 'biarkan' dan gak ada waktu lagi buat menyesal.

Isa 48:4  Because I knew that thou art obstinate, and thy neck is an iron sinew, and thy brow brass;

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Empat Aplikasi Oke Buat Android Kamu

Weits, pasti ngira blog ini lagi dibajak sama konter HP sebelah ya? Tenaang.. Saya mengetik ini dengan penuh kesadaran. Lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa banget ga nulis. Rasanya agak sedikit kagok. But here I am! Masih inget aku kan? Masih kan? Kan? Sebenernya banyaaaaaaaaaaak banget yang pengen ditulis, tapi apalah daya tangan tak sampai, niat tak bertahan. Well, kali ini mungkin rada beda sama postingan sebelum-sebelumnya, aku pengen posting tentang beberapa aplikasi oke yang aku install di Androidku. Oh anyway, iyah, aku ada Android sekarang. Ciyeeein dong ciyeeein.. Praise God, setelah lama diidamkan, eh kejadian juga punya HP yang naik level. Moga-moga barokaaaah. Amin. Eh jadi lupa deh kan mau posting apa. Well, ini dia list must installed aplications on Android versi @adek_adek. Cekidot!


1. Mysword

Ini adalah aplikasi Alkitab yang okeh banget. Versi mobile dari e-sword. Kelebihannya dari Alkitab lain? Buanyak! Dia punya beberapa module type seperti Bible, Commentary, Dictionary, Notes, Journal, dan Book. Buat yang lagi belajar Alkitab dan pengen compare terjemahan, ini aplikasi yang pas! Kalo buka KJVnya, ada link langsung ke bahasa asli. Mantep kan! Ditambah modul-modul tadi, belajar Alkitab menjadi lebih mudah!


2. EGWwriting atau kalo versi PCnya EGW Research

Ini adalah aplikasi yang pas buat kamu yang pengen baca buku-buku dari EGWpublisher. Bayangkan, ratusan buku dibungkus dengan hanya 1 aplikasi! Bisa search keyword, ngehighlight kutipan penting, berasa punya perpus Roh Nubuat pribadi! Sayangnya bukunya masih pada English. Mohon doa dan kontribusinya ya, supaya segera terbit yang versi Bahasa Indonesia. Biar makin banyak orang yang baca tulisan Roh Nubuat!


3. Feedly

Tau news feed kan? Aplikasi ini ya gunanya semacam itu. Kayak fitur reading list di blogger, di mana kita bisa nyimpen url yang kita suka supa tiap ada tulisan baru kita bisa langsung tau dan baca. Semacam punya surat kabar langganan. Bisa pilih sesuai kategori yang diminati. Misalnya Design, Technology, Photography, dan lain-lain. Serunya lagi, ga Cuma bisa nyimpen url, kamu juga bisa masukin keyword yang kamu pengen baca artikelnya. Wihiii..


4. Pinterest

Bukan, ini bukan level lanjutan dari pinter dan pinterer. Mungkin ini asal katanya ‘pin the interest’, ibarat punya papan atau mading pribadi, kamu bisa pin artikel bergambar dari web manapun. Tiap papan (board) bisa dibikin sendiri kategorinya. Asiknya lagi, Pinterest ini pas banget buat yang cari inspirasi desain, atau ngumpulin resep makanan. Tinggal masukin keywordnya, tadaaaa pin-pin terkait bermunculan. Kebanyakan isinya tips-tips, DIY project, resep makanan, dan tutorial. Recommended!

Yak, segitu dulu yak. Maklum, Andoidnya masih seumur anak ayam. Tunggu aplikasi recommended berikutnya. Ciaaaaooo.. *lempar bom asap

Friday, January 24, 2014

Sungguh TER LA LU!

Ya, akhirnya aku merasakan juga. Yang namanya terlalu itu pasti gak bagus. Bahkan terlalu bersemangat juga. Ada satu hal yang aku semangat banget ngerjainnya minggu ini. Saking semangatnya, lupa makan, lupa waktu jadi tidur telat, bahkan sampai lupa sama Tuhan. Ah! Makasih Tuhan, udah negor aku dengan kelelahan ini. Aku gak berharap besok langsung pulih, terlalu lancang rasanya. Aku cuma berharap besok-besok ini gak keulang lagi. Iya, kuncinya ada di aku.

Oh iya, plelase, doaku yang satu lagi kabulin yah. ;p